yo...seriously...my blog is running out of readers...haha...due to alot of us are all getting busy le...
well...hows sispec alot of ppl ask me...ok lo...i will say...haha...quite xiong la...i will oso say...i shant say much more in case i breach any rules...

hmm..duno la...rmb my ns friend joe say...his a regular btw...he said i sure can survive if i sign on...because im a very positive person...

am i? i ask myself...cause whenever i think abt my relationship life or my some what unknown future...i see alot of negative...i tried to plan for myself in the future...but seems everything i wanted to do is tough...haha...damn...maybe i should just plan how to struck toto....

being in sispec isnt wat i wanted of course....especially when i think some of the ppl tt go ocs didnt deserve to go as much as me...lol...i have to find another way to motivate myself to finish this..a reason better than...lan lan sux thumb oso have to serve...lol...of course wanting to cross over to OCS from sispec is one kind of motivation...but i already noe i only want to do tt cause i wanna prove to ppl i can...then i start to think is letting wat others think so important...arh... boring...think im boring those few readers of my blog to death liao...

im growing increasing despo...lol...k la..think i just miss the times where i have someone for me to love la...i dun really need to be love...haha...i just need someone to take my overloading love inside of me...lol...one thing good is my section all of us has no galfriends...lol...i called it the sadist section....lol...

well think i will continue next week ba..if i not lazy tt is...bye..